a journey
I’m not sure if I’ve covered this before but even still, imbalances can change and come and go and shift as situations are never the same.
But I had an epiphany yesterday and I wanted to write it all out and down before the courage it takes to do so wanes and ultimately leaves me. I’ll explain what I mean by this later, or in another blog post, because that’s something else I’m contending with. [Read more…]
Effort is a HUGE thing for me. I’m sure it is for a lot of folks and businesses worldwide but I don’t care for sweeping generalizations right now. I don’t care for a lot of generalizations most of the time, but that’s a topic for a different blog. [Read more…]
I wrote the title of this blog as a throwaway phrase late last year; tossed into my iPhone note app in the wee hours of the morning. In that space when the moonlight has passed into shadow and the sun hasn’t quite woken up yet. [Read more…]
The one-hundredth blog. A blogging milestone, I believe I can call this, yes? After going back and forth on how best to do a recap, I decided a short and sweet peek through the last 99 blogs would be the best way to go. Not because I don’t love writing – y’all know I do – but because it would take ages to go through individual posts and talk a little bit about each one. Besides, if you’re here, you’ve likely been through or browsed enough entries to get a feel of what I typically tend to write.
Let’s dive in shall we? [Read more…]
It’s already the middle of February and while that’s not a negative after the ENDLESS month of January we endured, something has been going on that I haven’t managed to name for the last 6 or so weeks. Let’s see if I’m able to actually pin it down for the sake of this blog: This thing is a whole lot of procrastination followed by fits and bursts of productivity which is then usurped by crippling self-doubt (a result of my little to no self-belief). This has been happening in a series of relentless waves and the current is a strong and formidable force; so much so I can’t help but feel that in spite of these rapid peaks and valleys, and the uncertainty they have brought, this is precisely what’s meant to happen at this point in my life. [Read more…]
Busy just might be bad…
No, not really. Busy is good in a lot of ways: Having projects or hobbies keeps your mind healthy and preoccupied; having personal or professional deadlines keeps you on your toes; having chores does a magical job of keeping those wandering thoughts neat and clean (and your home); having a job for x amount of hours per day keeps your head above water and the bills paid. [Read more…]
2018:
“I just decided to do it.”
I’m tricking my brain into this new ‘go big or go home’ way of living because for far too long I’ve not been honoring (yes, honoring) what it is I’m meant to do with this life. Not that I know what exactly that is, or if I ever will. Anyway, what I have been doing is allowing myself to go along with the low or high tides, accepting things as they are, things that I never would have given the time of day to before now. I’ve let so many parts of myself go in the effort of appeasing or appealing to others that switching the lights back on is nothing if not a painful reminder of just how dim things have become. [Read more…]
Well, here we are again. Another year ending, another year beginning. Another year of lessons, of highs and lows and every in-between moment that never ceases in its reminder that yes, I am still a part of it all.
That I still possess a beating, sometimes bleeding, heart. Still own a pair of lungs that breathe in and breathe out the stress, the happiness and even those words I keep only for myself. Ya know, the truths held tight for the space within each and every pause, as the air lingers on my lips for an infinitesimal moment in time.
That I still feel, share, experience, engage, act, and move, and move, and move forward. That I still Am.
But what else happened this year? What sets it apart? What sets it back or rather, what did I or didn’t I accomplish?
Rejection can wear quite a few faces – love, friendships, relationships, acquaintances, hell even a stranger can reject you – if you’re the sort that unmistakably knows how to find it in everyone. If you’re the sort… like me. [Read more…]
